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It kinda freaks me out that my own mind's created voices which I have arguments with and make me cry. It's like having a bully that knows every part of you.
It's fuckin weird

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OrangeGumdrop-AJ Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:O Dude, dude, that voice is an asshole. Think of it like an actual bully, and take none of it just say ''fuck you'' and move on :0 I mean that's what I do
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Carodemi Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I TRY but like, he just gets more aggressive and yells threats i hate him
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OrangeGumdrop-AJ Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
yES HaTEHIM, take revenge on him by being as happy as possible THATLL SHOW HIM
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Carodemi Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
XD hopefully
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OrangeGumdrop-AJ Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
rEVenGE!
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Carodemi Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
hahah
haHAHAHAHAHAHA
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Shadow-Hedgi Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
I have something similar. I have this weird nagging voice in my head that contradicts everything I think and do, and then starts talking as if I'm the stupid weird part of my brain. Yes, it is weird.
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Carodemi Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Rack is just a really aggressive asshole.
Like im having a good day.
and he just has to ruin it all
 i h ate having voicess ghghghg
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Shadow-Hedgi Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Me too. Mine only happens when I feel alone or very depressed or angry. I hope yours get better soon man. :)
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Carodemi Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Yeah hopefully, i hope yours gets better too.
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Shadow-Hedgi Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you. Let's both do our best. >:3
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Carodemi Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
gotcha!
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Shadow-Hedgi Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Good young Padawon <3
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GhostingUndercover Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2017  Student General Artist
dude wth are you okay??
do you wanna chat or something?
i hope you get better you don't deserve this 
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Carodemi Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I've had them for over a year I've gotten used to it but they're just massive assholes. And yeah sure why not let's talk about it
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GhostingUndercover Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2017  Student General Artist
shoot i'm late, but if you've changed your mind, you can still not tell me
i haven't probably experienced even a fraction of what you've been going through,
so if we still talk and i make a few mistakes, please look past them? 
i'll try not to offend you!
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Carodemi Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Nah it's fine! i don't mind talking about it with you, i don't expect you to understand it completely. but like, ok,have you ever been bullied? or REALLY scared
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GhostingUndercover Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2017  Student General Artist
Hm, I don't think your definition of "scared" will match mine, so no, I have not been very scared.
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Carodemi Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Idk if you've ever been picked on/threatened in anyway but it feels like that, now just imagine that but in your head and it can last for an entire day.
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GhostingUndercover Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2017  Student General Artist
And these voices belong to who?
Are they some part of you that picks on your weaknesses?
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Carodemi Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
They're not part of me, like personality, there's my conscious voice (yaknow everyone has it) 
There's rack (yeah alot of my demon ocs are the voices or are based off them) 
He's a HUGE asshole, his voice is dark and aggressive. He tends to constantly repeat words, or sentences.
a few he says alot are "Prick." "cut no one fucking cares" ect he likes saying that,
Then there's dp he tends to repeat everything rack say's but his voice is quiet and timid,  
Then there's another one who just laughs, just always laughs. He doesn't talk but i named him mirror.
There's one nice one i've heard since i was like 12/13 he was just like comforting ya'know made me feel safe when i was alone. he doesn't come around much anymore though.. 
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Razuna244 Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Awww are you gonna be alright? I had something similar but I finally conquered it... not by myself... but. Nonetheless. If you ever need anything, we're here for you :)
I hope those voices fuck off. You don't deserve that torment.
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Carodemi Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
They're not being really aggressive at the moment they're just kinda muttering random words so I'm not really wond up. But A couple of nights ago they sounded real I can usual tell that they're not real but idk it was so scary for like a solid hour just kept telling me he was gonna kill me. It was so fuckin scary man
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Razuna244 Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
I bet... I hope it gets better. Cuz it seriously sucks. That sounds terrifying.
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Carodemi Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Mhmmm. I struggle with my anger as well because of them, I'm usually a nice person I don't like fighting. But once I'm wond up my anger just explodes, and sometimes I wonder if this one thing didn't happen if all this stuff would've happened
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Razuna244 Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Sometimes one thing is all it takes to trigger a whooolllleeee chain of things. Call it the Butterfly effect, the domino effect, a chain reaction... it's really crazy...
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Carodemi Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
It really is, and the weird thing is it happened online so I didn't think it'd effect me so much? To put it simply, ex was manipulative and made me feel like a monster/lied about having a kid/having cancer. I'm terrified of her still and it's been over a year and I'm always terrified it'll happen again. :shrug: shit happens though I guess I'm still alive
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Razuna244 Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Awww... that sounds awful. Like who would do that? That's just terrible... I could see how that could effect you. You're a nice person, so something that wrong would probably hurt really bad... so that's understandable. I'm so sorry that happened though... that is most likely the trigger. And one that would make sense too... that seems like it would be haunting...
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Carodemi Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Idk man she was my first "girlfriend" so I didn't know any better. And she knew that she was just a complete monster. And it's hard to talk about because I'm a guy So you have this constant pressure to be a man and I was scared people would laugh so I just blocked it out. People have suggested therapy but I'd feel pretty pathetic to do that... Plus I don't really wanna tell my parents. But I find it really hard to trust someone in big situations. Idk it's just been popping up more and it's stressing me out? I guess cause I've got alot of time on my hands to just think.
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